I don’t know about you, but I am not very good at waiting. Especially when I am waiting for something that I REALLY need. It isn’t just a want or an I hope- but when this thing is missing from your life- it hurts.
My hubby and I moved with our kiddos to the South-East United States about 18 months ago. We have no family here locally, I had only driven through the state one time before moving to a rural town.
We like our church, but we feel like strangers. We don’t really fit in, we are having a really hard time making friends. And this has never happened to us before. We have lived in 3 different states together and this is the first time we have not made friends almost immediately.
I love having people over and cooking and hosting- making cookies and playing board games. Just laughing with others and having a good time. But we invite people and they don’t come. Everyone is really busy with their own lives and extended families.
We have never lacked Christian friends- and this loss has left a major hole in our lives.
But I have seen purpose in it. God has drawn me nearer to Him than I have ever been in my life. He has brought me such comfort- deeper and more enduring than I have ever known in my life.
That doesn’t mean that I have stopped longing for friends, in fact, I believe that God knows and understands that we need support on this Christian journey. So, I have faith that He will provide those friends that my hubby and I need.
The question is- what do we do as we wait?
Because I have done it all, cry, moan and groan, whine, complain, mope, feel sorry for myself, be thankful for other things, eat for comfort, focus on enjoying time with my husband, reach out to people in our neighborhood, at the park, try to be a friend to others- but what does God call us to do as we wait?
How can we honor Him in our waiting?
Because I am not going to lie- yesterday was a bad day. I cried for several hours during and right after church- I have been moping and sad today. And I don’t want to live like this- I know I need to change my attitude- even when I don’t want to- or don’t even feel like I can.
In these moments when the sadness overwhelms me- I have found solace in Andrew Murray. He has an incredible book called Waiting on God. If you are waiting right now, and need encouragement- please pick up this book. Here’s an excerpt of what I read today:
“And If you ask: How is it, if He (God) waits to be gracious, that even after I come and wait upon Him, He does not give the help I seek, but waits on longer and longer?
There is a double answer. The one is this. God is a wise husbandman, who “waiteth for the precious fruit of the earth, and hath long patience for it” (James 5:7).
He cannot gather the fruit until it is ripe. He knows when we are spiritually ready to receive the blessing to our profit and His glory.
Waiting in the sunshine of His love is what will ripen the soul for His blessing. Waiting under a cloud of trial, that breaks in showers of blessing, is as necessary. Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious.
God waited four thousand years, until the fullness of time, before He sent His Son. Our times are in His hands. He will avenge His elect speedily. He will make haste for our help and not delay one hour too long.”
So once again today, I must choose- to believe in the goodness of my Lord and Savior- to wait in anticipation of that moment when He will faithfully- at just the right time-bring an answer to all the prayers I have lifted up to Him.
I pray that we will honor Him as we wait- and remember that we serve a loving God who keeps His promises.