(written Sunday morning)
As I read the last chapter of Elizabeth Elliot’s book Discipline: The Glad Surrender this morning, I found myself so thankful for this precious word that the Lord has brought to me today.
The Scripture in James came to mind about the waves tossing me around, no self-control, no mooring, just going which ever way emotion seems to send me.
If any of you is lacking in wisdom, ask God, who gives to all generously and ungrudgingly, and it will be given you. But ask in faith, never doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind;for the doubter, being double-minded and unstable in every way, must not expect to receive anything from the Lord.
Our feelings, which can be so strong and powerful at times, must be brought under the discipline and care of the Lord.
That doesn’t mean that I stop feeling. I will continue to pour out my heart to God as the Psalmist encourages me to do.
But I don’t want to let my feelings steer the ship of my soul. I know whom I have believed. And when my heart trembles and emotions weigh me down and oppress me, I want to acknowledge this before the Lord and ask him for the strength to obey, even when it is hard.
We are moving in a few weeks. My emotions are in constant turmoil about this. I will miss our house and our neighbors; I will miss our church. I will miss my Bible Study friends, and fellowship over God’s Word together.
All these sacrifices are nothing, if this is where God is leading us. And praise His Name, I know that it is. He has blessed us with that confidence and peace. Every time that my emotions rear up, I have to speak the truth of this situation to myself and hold fast to God.
I can’t let my emotions turn me and toss me this way and that. It is so hard sometimes!
This chapter was so timely this morning. It has strengthened my resolve to trust God, even when my circumstances are hard. Especially when I am thrown out of my comfort zone and confronted with many trying circumstances.
This morning, as we prepare for church, I don’t know if our car will start (it just started acting up last night); my husband is out of state and unable to help. I find myself once again in a position where I must seek help from others, another blow to my illusion of self-sufficiency.
I need the Lord so desperately to give peace to my soul despite my circumstances. I don’t want to be tossed about, but to rest in the confidence that my Savior knows what I need, even before I ask him.
He will provide.
And though this road may not be easy, if I am walking the way He has called me to, there will always be grace sufficient for all my needs and strength to perform all the tasks he has called me to do.
Taking a deep breath this morning and leaning into Him. I need Him every hour, and in this hour I pray and hope to hold Him, keep my eyes heavenward, and pray for the strength to surrender my emotions to his Lordship.
Lord, you are sufficient for all my needs. Help me remind myself that you keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in you. That precious promise. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord is the rock eternal. You are my rock. Strong. Secure. Able to hold me steady through any storm. Thank you for being so steady and unwavering. I know that I can believe and hold fast to your Word and stand firm in Your promises to me. Praise be to your precious Name. Through Jesus Christ your son I pray, Amen.