Waiting to be rescued.
Waiting for a rescue.
Like these shoes on a wire…
That’s what we have been doing. Waiting for God to swoop in and save us from our circumstances. To do something miraculous in just the nick of time.
Like a superhero…or a knight in shining armor. To save us from our difficulties, to lift us out of our troubles…
And today, it came softly and strongly, this whisper in my ear…
What if the rescue has already begun?
What if your husband losing his job and the subsequent months of trials, difficulties, and hardships, were exactly what I had in mind?
What if rescue means dragging you out of the comfortable?
Drawing you nearer to God in the face of your ever-present need?
Learning the blessedness of possessing nothing… (A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God)
The reality is, there has never been a time in my life where I have felt such a desperate need for the LORD.
When this is coupled with what he has already taught me over these past several years (submitting to his Sovereignty and trusting even when I can’t see), it results in doing things a different way- actually trying to find God’s way.
I have never so fully sought to be obedient to Him as I have hoped and prayed about a job for my hubby and direction for our family.
There have been months we have felt that God has been silent. We have felt like our fervent prayers have fallen on deaf ears. We called out like David, “God, are you asleep? Please come quickly, we need you!”
And to hear his tender, sweet, loving voice gently speak this to me this morning reminds me why I continually choose to trust Him while the storm rages.
He never fails to bring hope and peace when I come to Him, acknowledging my need, and seeking Him- thirsty and hungry and helpless.
But his coming does not always mean an end to difficulties, hardships, or disappointments. Over these past several months I have learned the joy and blessedness of being fully present in the messiness of hard and being able to endure simply because He comes and makes himself known through His Word.
He knows exactly what I need to hear, and never fails to encourage and strengthen me as I seek Him.
So I don’t know what tomorrow brings.
But I do know one thing- God’s rescue has already begun for us.
We have a deeper love for Him and for each other than we ever have. He has increased our joy and thankfulness by revealing to us our many blessings and reminded us of the glorious riches we have in Him that can never be taken away.
Do I still have hard days?
Yes. I spent portions of this week crying out to God and shedding tears of mourning and grief, as we face the strong possibility of moving…again. It is hard to be refined and pruned and to be brought low and humbled by life circumstances.
Feeling raw and vulnerable makes me want to stay home and hide away from the world, to curl into myself and withdraw.
Only by the grace of God can I overcome these emotions and continue to press on. When I worship Him and remember who He is, I find the strength and endurance I need to put one foot in front of the other for one more day.
I have to lay the future at God’s feet moment by moment, acknowledging that I don’t know what’s going to happen, and yet I trust Him. I know he can handle it, and I know that I can handle whatever may come if I am walking with Him.
And so I pray…
Lord, you know the fears that beset our minds, and the expectations that we sometimes have about how you come and work in our lives. Sometimes I limit you, I forget that you work in amazing and mighty and unexpected ways. Thank you for how you are working in the hard things as well as the blessings. Thank you for using it all to bring you glory and draw us closer to you- to open our eyes to what really matters, that all else may fall away. No matter what may come, as long as you are here with us, I know that all will be well. It is well with my soul. Remind me Lord, when fears assail my mind and doubts roll in like a storm- hold me steady in your Word. Help us continue to submit to your will even when it hurts. We love you and believe you are working all things for good. In Jesus Name and in faith we hope, even when we cannot see, Amen.