…filled with all the fullness of God.
Those who feed on the LORD Jesus Christ will never hunger or thirst again…
What does this mean for my life?
That when I truly surrender myself to the LORD I will no longer need to eat or drink to sustain my physical body?
No, I have come to believe there is something much deeper here, connected with the call of Christ when he said, those who wish to follow me must deny themselves, take up their cross, and follow me.
I am speaking of something else- this emptiness inside me that longs for fulfillment, that my life might have meaning, that I would be part of something greater than myself. This need for meaningful connection with others- that can’t be found in myself alone.
I know that I do not have, nor can I find in the temporal world, something that adequately fills this longing. Most of the things I tried to fit in there never truly satisfy…in the moment that feeling might be numbed, or I might be distracted for a time by this or that, but once that time has passed, this reality remains.
Milton Vincent says it well in A Gospel Primer:
“On my most basic of levels, I desire fullness, and fleshly lusts seduce me by attaching themselves to this basic desire. They exploit the empty spaces in me, and they promise that fullness will be mine if I give in to their demands….What happens to my appetites for sin when I am filled with the fullness of God in Christ?…Indeed, as I perpetually feast on Christ and all of His blessings found in the gospel, I find that my hunger for sin diminishes and the lies of lust simply lose their appeal. Hence, to the degree that I am full, I am free. Eyes do not rove, nor do fleshly lusts rule, when the heart is fat with the love of Jesus!”
I want to be full.
I have found that only God satisfies this longing. Feeding on his Word, fellowship with other believers- most of all- earnest, heart-felt prayer with others seeking after the LORD. I have literally left those times of fellowship feeling “spiritually fat and filled.”
This Scripture came to mind on one of those occasions, and now it continues to come to me:
Psalm 63:5 My soul is satisfied as with a rich feast…
And my heart and soul says, YES! David understood. There is a way fellowship with God truly slows me, calms me, fills me, and gives me rest that stops this churning inside of me. This restless seeking that has ebbed and flowed in my life for so many years.
And now, I see more clearly than I ever have, there is blessedness in simply being filled in Him. Needing nothing else, and by the power of the Holy Spirit dwelling in me- longing for nothing more than simply Him.
Every time this old restlessness rears its head, I find that those things that used to captivate or distract me leave me feeling hollow and disappointed. And even at times, angry- for time wasted chasing after shadows and illusions.
There is no replacement for this “God-shaped hole” except simply, God himself. That was his beautiful design, and I have found that only in surrender to this do I begin to find fullness and lasting peace. All other things fade in their beauty, the longer I linger in God’s presence.
And so I linger…simply admitting my need- daily- moment by moment… to abide in the presence of my precious Savior and God.
And this song suddenly becomes sweeter still…
“He satisfies my longings, like nothing else can do. I love to tell the story, twill be my theme in glory, to tell the old, old story of Jesus and his love…”