When I am weak…you are strong.
As my self-sufficiency crumbles, I daily begin from a simple place in my mind and heart.
I don’t want to face this day without you, LORD.
In my heart, I am tender.
As I prayed with my husband last night, I was struck with the simplicity of our prayers.
Psalm 62:5-8 came to mind:
For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.
That’s what we were doing. Pouring out our hearts, acknowledging our own inability to handle the difficulties and challenges of our life.
So simple, yet how often do we forget- when we think things are more manageable or we can handle it on our own- we fail to honor Him by simply stopping- praying- and reminding ourselves of His Sovereignty in all things.
When I opened up Jesus Calling, a devotional by Sarah Young, this morning- I was blessed and encouraged as God once again brought a verse to mind.
Repeated to me for the third time in two days- and in my heart I know he is gently saying to me, “Pay attention, my precious daughter- listen to my words:
2 Corinthians 12:9- but he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness.” So, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
My own weakness can serve to remind me of the all-surpassing power of our God.
To surrender, to yield to God- self must lose its sway.
So I am thankful to be here, feeling weak- unable to manage all the challenges that I daily face. Driven to my knees as I see clearly my own inability to successfully navigate these struggles alone.
LORD, my God and King. Sovereign ruler of all. I am so thankful that you hold us in the palm of your hand. That you have a plan and purpose that cannot be thwarted by human schemes. You sent a Savior for us- you saved us in our sin, and reconciled us to yourself. I can stand before you unashamed, through the blood of your precious Son, Jesus. Even as I write these words, and hold them in my heart- I am astounded by the reality of what you have done. Unworthiness and humility come over me- and a part of me wishes to flee from this reality- from feeling intimacy with your holiness. For I know the evil in my own heart- how easily I succumb to sins, how clumsy I can sometimes be- living my life unaware of the precious gift of each moment. Oh LORD, these days I find tremendous comfort in your grace- feeling it cover and wash over me. Strengthen us as we seek you. May your voice of conviction be sweet in my ear- and help me to obey you LORD and throw off the yoke of slavery to habitual sin. Draw me nearer to you- always nearer to you. All praise and glory to my Savior and God, Amen.