I feel very still and quiet today.
No questions lurking- as they pop up in my mind- I push them away.
I don’t know the answer. Where the path lies. And I recognize the crossroads here.
Following the path of the past- fix it, manage it, quickly. Don’t admit that you are not sure where the future lies. Have a plan- sound like you are in control.
And I wish to forge a new path.
For firm roots to sink deeper into my Savior.
To wait in trust.
To hope in Him.
To push all worry aside and simply say, “I trust you, those who put their faith in you will not be ashamed. ”
This is a narrow road.
Where losing a job can be seen as a blessing.
Where an uncertain future does not incite fear but grasped as an opportunity to grow in faith.
To live a life with God’s mark all over it.
All glory is His alone.
And when our lives take unexpected turns- we don’t lament- but we say, “what’s God up to?”
For the one who loves me more than any other…is also one who I can completely trust my life.
Psalm 131 O Lord, my heart is not lifted up, my eyes are not raised too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for me. But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; my soul is like the weaned child that is with me. O Israel, hope in the Lord from this time on and forevermore.
Only in you LORD, only in you do we find quiet rest and peace. In solitude and silence we find strength as we listen to your still small voice. Thank you LORD for the mysterious ways you work- gently speaking to us, urging us deeper in our intimacy with you- yet without demanding or pushing- in your mercy you orchestrate events in our lives to draw us near- to give us opportunities to choose you. I see your mercy and faithfulness as a string woven through the fabric of my whole life, always present, even in seasons when I failed to see. And now, when fears and doubts sometimes overwhelm, and I am tempted to seek comfort in old habits- oh LORD, help me cling to you. I never regret running to my refuge, my strong tower, the Rock that is my Redeemer. Help us to trust you today with what our eyes cannot see. To remember that You are love- full, abundant, steadfast love. We can trust you. Take our burdens LORD, we lay them down. Through your precious son, Jesus, we pray, Amen.