Our enemy knows our weaknesses.
He knows the areas where we struggle with habitual sin.
Those lies that struck deep.
Those memories seared into our brains – no matter how much time passes- we can still see ourselves in those moments- when someone spoke words over us- words of curse- of hurt- of rejection- of inadequacy.
When I was in high school, a teacher called me thunder thighs in front of the whole class. I will never forget that moment. The name of the teacher. How I felt. The other kids laughter.
The wound is deep.
And there are seasons when God has healed me. But it has come slowly, in stages, as though he has been peeling back deeper layers of pain and lies that were hid under the other lies.
And over these past few weeks, the enemy has once again teased and taunted me with lies- that I am not beautiful- that God messed up when he made me.
Looking back, I start to see some unguarded moments. When the choir director commented on how another young mom looks athletic- and I hear the whisper that I don’t look athletic. No one would know that I am a runner because my body doesn’t look like hers.
And then not being able to fit in a pair of pants, they feel a little tight-and another lie- you will never be as small as you were before you had children. You are fat– out of shape- you will be the last person to finish the race (my hubby and I have signed up for a trail race in a few months).
And then the comparisons– those subtle glances where I evaluate myself against others- it had started again- but I wasn’t paying attention.
I have a blind spot to this area in my life sometimes.
Because God’s cleansing work is still new.
And I can forget that I am not living under those lies anymore.
God has set me free.
But I start to put back on the chains.
But praise be to God, he opened my eyes once again.
He reminded me that he loves me just as I am. He created me just as I am- with a curvy body and big hips.
My hubby loves this about my figure- another grace from God. A husband who loves my body just as it is- and praises how God made me.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
What are the lies the enemy has told you?
Maybe it has been a lifelong struggle.
An injury in your past.
A wound that never seems to fully heal.
Find a friend you trust to pray with you.
Search Scripture to find verses that can help you as you seek God’s healing.
Douse yourself in God’s truth.
Shine the light of his Word in the darkness of the lie.
Take each thought captive! This is so important. I am reminded once again to be diligent at all times to see what my mind is reflecting on and to test it against God’s Word.
God loves us.
Just as we are.
We don’t need to change to be acceptable to Him.
Embrace this truth in thankful praise as I do as well.
Today, let us throw off these habitual sins through the power of the cross of Christ and press on with endurance- filled with joy and thanksgiving for the freedom that is ours.
If the Son has set you free, you are free indeed.
Lord, some wounds go deep. They fester under the surface. We have let those lies stir up fear and doubt- they have distanced us from you. Shine your light on the lies Lord, open our eyes and help us to see where we are accepting the enemy’s lies instead of living in your truth. Free us we pray! Lead us out of our captivity and into the freedom of your peace and steadfast love. We forget- your love never ends- always perseveres, always hopes- it never fails. We are your treasured children- we are heirs with Christ. Thank you God. Give us discernment- help us to see through the lies- to use your Word as a guard on the door of our minds. That we take every thought captive- always watching for the enemy’s scheme. Abiding in you- seeking your presence- for we know only in you do we have lasting peace. Heal us- mold us- and when we claim the victory- may we give glory to your Name alone. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.