Quiet

Five Minute Friday

Quiet.

Silence.

Are they the same?

I want to look them up.  I want to understand rest.  Because quiet is something I crave, but when I have it, it seems wrong- out of joint.  Like something is missing.

Too much quiet makes me feel…

I love the silence of the morning.  When I am alone without demands and questions, without little voices calling or eyes looking for me.  When I only get up b/c I want to- or I need something.

But I know I would miss the same things that I long to escape.

So what I really wonder is- how much quiet do I need to get through the loudness of life?

How can I find stillness with noise?

Because I need it.  I want to quiet and still inside when outside is chaos.

I want to be steady and anchored.

I know I can be in the Lord.  I know if I abide in Him he can anchor me.  Yet I still let myself become untethered and I wander.

I can’t even have five minutes.  I sat down to write this post and I’m interrupted.

I want to be angry.  I know that’s selfish.

I want to balance time for me- time for all I love- most who I love- who God has called me to love- even when it’s hard.

Sometimes I just feel like there is not enough of me.

How if I waste one minute- I can never get it back.

But how do I live and balance the work and the quiet.

I want a quiet and gentle spirit- that doesn’t fight against giving way for others- but when do I take time for me?

How do I make time in the midst of this day to carve out seconds to find peace- to maintain quiet in me?

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2 Responses to Quiet

  1. Deanna says:

    Wow! You pose some very difficult questions! You are not alone in trying to find the “quiet” through the messiness and loudness of daily life. I also love the mornings when it is just me with no demands… I find it is then that I find my strength for the day. Quiet time with the Lord changes my entire focus and outlook, and gives me so much more patience throughout the day. Thank you for posting!
    -Linking up behind you with Lisa-Jo :)

    • Rachel says:

      Deanna- I don’t know how I would make it now without those times of quiet seeking the Lord in the mornings. I am hoping and praying that as I daily seek Him- he will help me find the answers to the questions I seek. Thank you for your sweet comment and for stopping by. God bless you.

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