Places to Go, People to See

Sophie sleeping
My daughter came down early this morning.  She wanted to snuggle, promptly crawled up in my lap, got comfortable and fell fast asleep.  I couldn’t reach my coffee, I couldn’t reach a book- essentially I was trapped.

In the quiet, I began to squirm inwardly.  I have so many things to do today!  I could be getting those things done.  Then I would say to myself, “just be still and enjoy this moment, quit trying to wish it away.” And so it went.  I spent that hour and a half wrestling with myself- but truth be told- the silence was unnerving- and having to be still and silent at the same time was almost unbearable.

Why?  I don’t know if I would have explored that question if it had not been for the sermon I listened to tonight.  It was about silence.

How often do you tell your children to hurry?  When people ask you how you are doing what do you say?  Ever respond with, “I’m busy”, or “well we are just so busy right now.”

Busyness is worn like a badge of accomplishment in our society.  We fill our lives with activities and plans, well, we are all like Martha.

Luke 10:38-42

38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Are you worried and upset about many things?  Maybe we don’t even know what we are worried or upset about because we don’t sit still long enough to even take inventory of what is truly going on inside of us- and then we stumble into bed exhausted and do it all again the next day.

I wrote a post a while back called Seek Silence.  This post was inspired by that same sermon.  It affected me so profoundly I decided to listen to it again, and again I felt the Lord’s conviction.

When I am silent and still before God- I feel uncomfortable, helpless, out of control, restless- it is hard for me to focus.

I am fine when I am reading God’s Word or praying, or doing anything else actively in connection with seeking Him.  But…when I get quiet- still, truly silent in my spirit-not doing anything else but quietly waiting before Him- I get the squirms.

I want to be still until I can rest like Mary did.  I see in myself this desire to control things- even to control God.

I am fumbling around trying to make things happen, trying to assert myself- be organized, be productive, mark everything off today’s list, enslave my soul to be obedient, eliminate sin in my life…and I forget- to simply gaze upon my Savior- to rest and listen at His feet.

How can we slow our lives enough to truly be in tune with where God is leading us?  Are we so busy serving that we miss our Savior?

I want to accept the silent challenge- to find time weekly to just be quiet before Him.  Even if it is just a walk in the neighborhood in the evening for 30 minutes without a cell phone or MP3 player or I-Pod.  To just rest and seek silence before Him.

I need to practice it- to feel comfortable- for it to feel normal.  To relate to God with familiarity, pouring out my emotions- my pain, my joys- the cry of my heart.  That’s what David did.  The Psalms are prayers of passion.

I want to be a woman after God’s own heart.  How do we do it?  We seek Him.  Rest in Him- be silent and wait before Him.  Look at Jesus- how often did He steal away to a quiet place to pray and be alone with His Father?  How much more, then, do we need to establish that practice?

Can we step off the merry-go-round of busyness and seek our Savior?  Are we willing to cut out things, even “good” things, to do what is best?  To be with Him, silent before Him?

Almighty God, we praise you for your Word, for the truth that we can find there if we seek You with our whole heart.  Reveal to us your eternal Truth.  Pierce our hearts Lord, convict us- stir us up within daily- with a desire to know you, to chase hard after you.  Lord, in this world of technology and constant stimulation- may we seek to unplug.  To come away; to draw near to you.  Lord, remind us of how much we need you.  We forget as we live in our busyness and self-sufficiency how completely meaningless our strivings are in this life apart from you.  They are meaningless, a chase after the wind.  May we start to live with purpose- with a vision of the eternal before us.  May we begin to feel like strangers in this land- and long in our hearts for eternity with you.  Slow us down- may “hurry” become a word we abhor.  In Jesus Name and by His power we pray, Amen.

Slow Down

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8 Responses to Places to Go, People to See

  1. Marissa says:

    Slowing down- something I know I need to do, and yet I can’t ever do it! I get what you are saying about the silence as well, it is so unnerving to just be silent

    • Rachel says:

      I agree Marissa- it is hard to slow down in our society- we are so used to hurrying and go, go, go. But my hubby and I are trying- that means cutting a lot out of our life- even “good” things. Still praying about this process- for discernment and leading from the Lord for where and when to serve- how to manage our time. It is definitely a daily walk. I pray that silence one day will be second nature for me- as I seek to practice that discipline. Blessings on you.

  2. Eileen says:

    I have a hard time sitting still too. Thank you for the reminder of how important it is. That’s when we hear His voice.

    • Rachel says:

      Amen Eileen! He keep reminding me- seek silence. It won’t happen in this world by accident. God bless you, so glad you stopped by. :)

  3. Rachel~
    Thank you so much for linking up today. Thank you also for the reminder of how essential quite time is to grow my relationship with the Lord!

    Shari

    • Rachel says:

      Shari- Thanks for the opportunity to link up and give glory to God and testify how He is changing my life. God bless you.

  4. Jenifer says:

    Love this! I too have a hard time just sitting still in the silence. Reading His Word, praying, listening to praise music, yea I can do that. But just being still in the quiet is a whole other story. I start thinking of things, my mind goes all over the place, or I think I hear things, it is just craziness! I love this encouragement!

    • Rachel says:

      So glad you were encouraged Jenifer- I know it will take some work- but I pray that God will continue to provide opportunities where I can develop the discipline of seeking silence. God bless you.

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