Know first that I feel your pain- the anguish of totally inability to make the change occur- the helplessness when things are truly beyond our control.
But take up hope today- let us remember together the Mighty One- the Lord God- Jehovah-jireh.
31 but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
“Our waiting on God will depend greatly on our faith of what He is…it is as that revelation enters into our soul that the waiting will become the spontaneous expression of what we know Him to be–a God altogether most worthy to be waited upon.” Andrew Murray- Waiting on God
I have a tendency to spend my time waiting selfishly fixated on this one area of my life that is lacking- making it into a monstrous mountain in my mind.
All the blessings- health, my children, my husband, our home, a safe place to live, food on the table-I can spend a day with all these things forgotten as I fixate all my energy on-Why God?
When I read this excerpt today, I felt so convicted for those moments when I let the negativity and selfishness win- instead of consciously moving myself out of those thoughts and into thankfulness.
It is an act of the will- to turn on that praise music, or raise your voice in a hymn. To grab your Bible and spend some time in the Psalms letting David comfort you and remind you of who God is.
To get down on your knees and pray.
Now, take heed- Andrew Murray wisely points out- multiple times- we are strong in God’s strength- we are victors through Him who gives us the victory. We cannot do it on our own. We are on God’s wings- He lifts us up to the high places.
Let me allow Andrew Murray to finish this post with another quote from the reading today:
“He stirs up your nest. He disappoints your hopes. He brings down your confidence. He makes you fear and tremble, as all your strength fails, and you feel utterly weary and helpless. And all the while He is spreading His strong wings for you to rest your weakness on and offering His everlasting Creator strength to work in you. And all He asks is that you sink down in your weariness and wait on Him. Allow Him in His Jehovah strength to carry you as you ride upon the wings of His omnipotence.
Dear child of God, I pray you, lift up your eyes, and behold your God!”
That last line truly brought tears to my eyes. I felt as though God was saying to me, lift up your eyes to me, Rachel. Remember who I am, remember all I have done- rest in me.
I pray that today- you will lift up your eyes and behold your God. May He comfort and uphold you as you wait.