I can remember seasons of rushing through my days- every moment accounted for- church, work, school, sports, exercising, eating, sleeping, studying- and volunteering with youth group, a small group, or coaching a youth soccer team.
There are sweet memories from that season of life- but I would say that my favorite time is now.
God knows best- yes, I believe it. Because things could have turned out differently for me. I could have been a workaholic- I am a perfectionist and love to have affirmation from people.
Yet, God drew me away- into my home- with my children. I am more lonely now than I have ever been in my life.
I have days where I hardly leave the house- my social life has dwindled to a slow trickle.
Some days I feel invisible…
But, there has been no season of my life when I have felt nearer to God. Separated from the busyness of my former life- I hear God’s voice more clearly.
In times of silence, times of quiet stillness. I feel peace like I have never known before.
I have time to savor life– I don’t always choose to do it, but I have seen the blessing of it- more now than ever.
I know my children play a part in my new appreciation for the blessing of life. For the flowers, for the birds singing, watching planes fly across the sky, picking out shapes in clouds, giving life to inanimate objects, pretending.
Most days I stop and thank God for my children- for my husband, for all the blessings He has given us. I am so aware of how rich we are.
And in my loneliness, I have found tremendous comfort in Christ. He continues to remind me of the blessings before me, through His people and His Word- continually urging me to see with His eyes- not focusing on what I lack- but rather what I have in abundance.
I see clearly what Satan longs to do- to take our circumstances and magnify the deficiencies and minimize the blessings- till all we see is what we do not have- and we spend our days pining after those things.
We can spend our entire lives living like the grass is always greener- never really loving where we are right now- always looking back or urging time forward.
So I pray that instead, we will live in the moment- we will look for God’s hand in the every day. I pray that we will savor the simple blessings.
I pray that we will honor Him with our Praise today- and that in our praising we will remember all that He has done- all that He has sacrificed- and take heart in the midst of our own struggles.
1 Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.