I was hired for a job yesterday.
I signed the contract this morning.
And not an hour later, I was in the trenches of the boundary war.
Already, I was being asked to attend a meeting on a night when I go to Bible Study with my daughter.
I was being asked to say NO.
God is so kind, to give me this advance warning from a grace-filled person who responded very well to my NO, and to remind me that a fight is required to keep priorities in the right places.
Honoring God and turning away from the temptation of pleasing man has always been a struggle for me. I feel that pressure to say Yes, to not disappoint anyone.
Being home for the past several years with my children has been an escape from some of these outer pressures. I have had more control over my schedule, more quiet time, more free time- but I have protected and fought for it.
I am so thankful for this reminder today that as I move into this new role, new challenges will emerge.
There will be very “good” reasons to make a compromise here, and give a little time there- but I am praying this morning, pleading with my precious Savior- please Lord, help me to weather the storms of other people’s displeasure if it runs in opposition of what you call me to do.
May I please you first; please precious Savior help me.
Take this trembling, recovering people-pleaser and make me into a bold woman who can rest in confidence on your promises to me. Pleasing you is enough.
O Lord, thank you for walking with me each day. Thank you for the presence of your Holy Spirit- a trusted guide and counselor, my advocate. I stand in awe of you today, and how you can change our hearts and increase our yearning for you above all else. My heart swells with gratitude for all the ways you have opened my eyes and continue to show me the path of life. And as I pray Lord, I remember your word:
All the paths of the LORD are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies. Ps. 25:10
I am humbled, O Lord you are here. I feel held by you, even as I want to wonder how and worry and control- you bring your peace into my troubled mind. You keep my mind in peace as I say in this moment, I will choose to trust you. You will hold me steady. You will keep my foot from slipping. You hold me up with your righteous right hand. All praise and glory is yours forever. In the name of my precious Savior and Lord, I rest and hope, Amen.